(Deep in a teen girls mind part 2)
I’m angry at myself.
I want to be happy.
I act happy which makes me happy!
But sometimes it’s hard and tiring.
Why can’t I just spit it out and tell someone?
But I do know why…
Because I’m embarrassed thats why. I’m scared to talk to someone if they take it the wrong way or don’t care.
I don’t want to be the deporessesd girl
I’m not depressed .
I know that.
But I’m not always as happy as I act,
But I want to be,
I try to be,
I love my life.
I love my friends.
I love my heart.
I hate my mind. 😕
And i hate that I hate my mind..
I don’t want to be that girl who’s too sensitive.
I want to be confident!
I want to be the girl people see me as.
I don’t blame them for not noticing that I’m not as confident as I seem. I wouldn’t notice.
But sometimes.. I’m hurting and I never tell anyone.
I just can’t spit it out.
But I don’t want to.
It scares me!
I think, I over think.
And care to much about what people think of me.
It’s not like I want to be reallly really happy, because I am.
But I think I don’t know what’s real and what’s fake anymore.
But I know it’ll pass I’ll be genuinely happy in a couple days or weeks.
So I know I’ll be okay!
But one day there will be someone,
Someone I will talk to,
Share my thoughts with .
Long story short, talk to someone , don’t bottle up or this will happen…! Hope you didn’t cringe while reading my thoughts ❤️